31/12/2012

What a Year!*

Posted in Encouragement, Finding Faith, Musings, Self-Awareness tagged , , , , , , , , at 2:55 pm by The Water Bearer

Fear

13 years ago God called me to write. It has been a long road from then until now and even though I never forgot my promise, or turned away from it, I have not exactly finished the book I promised to write. 😦

A few years ago, I was given some advice by the man who performed the memorial service for my Dad when he passed away. This celebrant had helped other writers to get published and told me to join up to a particular writing club in my State, and to start a blog.

So I began writing blog posts for the next 2 years, while battling grief and depression, I hadn’t joined the writers club and had still not created a blog site on which to publish my posts.

Here I was procrastinating, unable to face my fear and let the world into my place of intimate writing. In March 2012, God gave me a small taste of the most painful time in my life, a time I had been through a few years earlier. I won’t pretend I wasn’t scared. Reliving my worst nightmare is not something I take lightly. I was desperate to not have to go back through anything like that again. A huge upheaval shook my peace and after a few coinciding signs, one sentence stood out to me which I could not disregard. It spoke clearly into my heart.

“2012 could be your worst year or your best year. The choice is yours.”

In light of the threat of reliving my worst year, and the promise I had made to write, I made a choice to go forward to bite the bullet and push past my fear and so created Inner Angels & Enemies.

The level of growth, peace, connection and joy that I have received since I began blogging is paramount compared to anything I have experienced before. Yet, I had all but forgotten that warning back in March, at least until last night….

In a very casual manner, I was relaxing and enjoying watching some episodes of Boston Legal (both mine & my Dad’s favourite show, we used to watch together). Funnily enough, 3 episodes were based around the Christmas/New Year Holiday Season. As the last episode on the disc came to a close, the two main characters, played by James Spader (Alan Shore) and William Shatner (Denny Crane), were sitting out the balcony reminiscing on the past year.

Denny – “Shoot a bad guy, save the life of someone you love, what a great year!”

Alan – “I have thought of myself as many things Denny, but being loved is not one of them, yet twice today I have been told that the opposite is in fact true.”

Denny – “Happy New Year my friend”

Alan – “Happy New Year? How could next year possibly top this one?”

They clink their glasses and the credits roll……

“How could next year possibly top this one?”

Up until I heard those words, I had forgotten that warning earlier in the year! However, God did not let the year end without giving me a clear reminder of all He has done and ALL He can do!

We can only go forward in faith when we push past the fear and hold tight to the promises of the Almighty! Is fear preventing you reaching God’s promises in your life?

With God’s power, next year has the potential to be far better than our wildest imagination!

God’s Blessings to you all in 2013 and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

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18 Comments »

  1. Butch Dean said,

    Have a wonderful new year!

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  2. graciehill48 said,

    Glad you pushed past the fear. It has been enjoyable reading your blog. Keep it up.

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    • Thank you for such kind words Gracie. It has been a pleasure sharing with you! Happy New Year! 🙂

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  3. Beautiful! My blog has done the same for me! Happy New Year my dear!

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  4. GodGirl said,

    Amen! What a journey so far… and He has many more adventures to come. Thanks for the reminder to lift our lives to Him anew…

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  5. George Hayward said,

    Have a great 2013, keep up the awesome writing! 🙂

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  6. I really hope your new year is going well. Thanks for visiting my blog of late!! So good to see you there again.

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    • It has been extremely busy at this end, I’m having trouble keeping up with all the blogs I follow, but yours however is one I always look out for. My New Year has been wonderful, Praise God, I hope yours has been also. Blessings to you!

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  7. Lyn Leahz said,

    I follow you, yet I’ve not gotten any of your post notifications. (sigh) I’ve had this happening quite a bit over the past few months. I’ll unfollow and then follow again. Maybe they’re going to an email address I used to use that I don’t use anymore. God bless you! I hope you’ve been doing well!

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    • Not to worry, Lyn ..they are all here still 😉 Glad you stopped by though, have missed seeing you around the blogosphere lately. Hope all is well with you. I am doing well thank you muchly, it was a lovely Christmas and Holiday season with family & friends, Feeling very settled, Loved, & blessed. How was your holidayz?? Blessings to you! 🙂

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      • Lyn Leahz said,

        It went fast, as usual..the older we get, the faster everything goes! Glad yours went well! I’ve missed you too! I’m posting more than ever…but now I know why I never hear anything from you here…all of your post notifications were going to an email I never use! LOL Glad i figured it out! God bless u!

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      • I’m glad you sorted it too. I have missed your comments. 🙂 I’m already back at work after 4 weeks off getting ready to kick off the new school year. Yes it does go fast, although I did manage to slow it down a little this year by trying to be more present and stop so much ‘mind-wandering’. The more I spent time actually taking notice of where I was in the moment and who I was with right then, the more time I felt I had. This is a new concept for me but I am getting better and I like the slower pace I am experiencing for the first time in my life. Looking forward to much more connecting with you now that you can receive my posts. Yay!

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      • Lyn Leahz said,

        ♥♥♥Me too! God bless u!

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